Tonight feels like this...


It's 7-something on a Sunday night.

I know where your head is right now.

Because I've been there, staring at the ceiling or the screen, watching Sunday slip into Monday, feeling that tightness in the chest that has nothing to do with what's actually happening and everything to do with what's coming.

The to-do list is already writing itself in your head.

The week hasn't started and you're already tired.

And somewhere in that spiral, a sentence starts looping:

"I'll try to make this week better."

I'll try.

Can I tell you something about that word?

"Try" is a trapdoor. It sounds like you're doing something, but it's actually giving yourself permission to not do it.

"I'll try to take care of myself." "I'll try to set a boundary." "I'll try to not fall apart by Wednesday."

Try is survival mode in a dress.

And tonight... right now, in this moment where you're bracing for tomorrow, is the perfect time to change one word.

Drop "try." Say "will."

Not "I'll try to take care of myself this week."

"I will take care of myself this week."

Not "I'll try to do something different."

"I will do something different."

Feel the difference?

One sounds like a wish. The other sounds like a decision.

You don't need a new plan.

You don't need to overhaul your life before the alarm goes off.

You just need to stop negotiating with yourself using words that already have one foot out the door.

One word. That's it. That's your week.

Tomorrow is coming but you're not walking back into survival mode.

You're walking into it differently, one word at a time.

PROUD OF YOU 💙

Walking with you,

Leasha

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