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I didn’t want to die. I just wanted the noise to stop.
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I used to tell my wife something that was terrifying to say out loud. “I don’t want to be here anymore.” And every time, I rushed to explain. It wasn’t that I wanted to die. I didn’t want my life to end. I just wanted the noise in my head to stop. The nonstop thoughts, tight chest and the feeling that my own mind was a room I couldn’t escape. I wanted peace. In my head, my body and in my being. Back then, it honestly felt like the only way I would ever get that peace was to not be here at all. Instead of getting mad, my wife would just hold me. In the darkest nights. When my thoughts were spiraling and my body felt like it was on fire. No one had ever stayed with me like that before. What I didn’t understand then is this: I wasn’t broken. I was overwhelmed. My nervous system had been stuck in survival mode for decades. I didn’t want to disappear. I wanted relief. And I have that now. Not because life became easy but because I learned how to slow my thoughts down instead of fighting them. That is why I still use the LIST Method™ when my mind starts looping to get it out of my head, onto paper, and into clarity before it overwhelms me. If you’ve ever thought, “I just want this to stop,” please hear this: You are not asking for too much. You are asking for peace. And you are allowed to have it. ​Grab The LIST Method™ App ​​ PROUD OF YOU 💙 Walking with you, Leasha ​ P.S. My CMS Daily Check-In CORE: 1 CLARITY: 1 CONNECTION: 1 CREATION: 1 ​ Total: 4 / 4 |
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