I am still processing.

And I almost did not write this today. Because honestly? I do not have a clean lesson for you. I do not have a breakthrough moment wrapped up with clarity and a bow on top.

What I have is this week.

And this week has been heavy.

Sunday, I had a call that cracked something open in me. Then, a follow-up call today that cracked it open a little more. There are things happening with me processing the loss of my brother right now that I am still sitting with, emotions I have not fully named yet. And a situation with a friend that is living in my chest like a weight I keep forgetting is there until I go quiet and feel it again.

Emotionally stretched thin does not even cover it.

And here is why I am telling you this.

Because I think we have this idea especially when we follow someone who talks about healing and doing the work that the person on the other side of the screen has it handled. That they moved through the hard stuff and now they just live in the after. The clean version. The figured-out version.

I want you to see the messy middle.

This is it. Right here. This email. Me telling you that this week brought me to my limit and I felt it. I walked away from a call because my nervous system looked at me and said that is enough for right now. And then I booked another one anyway. Because that is what the work actually looks like. Not fearless. Not polished. Just… choosing to keep going even when it is hard.

Every single breakthrough I have ever had started the same exact way.

A loud sentence in my head. A belief that felt like truth. A story that was trying to take over the whole room.

And every time, every single time, I go back to the same place.

The LIST Method™ Tool.

That is where my healing began in 2020 and it is where I still go when I am triggered, when I am overwhelmed, when something is hitting me harder than I understand and I cannot figure out why. I write the sentence down. I separate what is fact from what is story. I look at what is real and what is fear dressed up as real.

Awareness first. Then choice.

That is the whole thing.

If you are in a hard week too please do not wait until you feel better to start. You will not feel better first. That is not how it works. You start in the middle of the mess and the clarity comes after.

Start with the sentence.

→ Grab The LIST Method™ Tool here​

I will be sharing more soon about the calls, about what it's been like this week, about processing the loss of my brother all these years later, about what is unfolding in real time. I am not disappearing on you. I am just in it right now.

And so maybe are you.

You are not alone in it.

PROUD OF YOU 💙

Walking with you,

Leasha

P.S. The messy middle is not a sign that you are failing. It is a sign that you are actually doing it.